Convincement

The rush I'm experiencing

not looking into your eyes

nothing but g.force

rushing around..no i want to cry.

I can be strong, just wait you'll see

ill lie to myself, ill have to believe

i cant get any worse

than how i already am

confused and baffled..shit fuck..god damn.

I'm getting better..i can feel it inside

the feelings I'm feeling

their no longer alive.

And yet sometimes 

in the blankest part of my mind

a random thought blinks into my eyes

It could be a moment of clarity.. as hard as it may seem

often their just revelations

all for my big eye screen

Just like subtitles only their invisible in my eyes

blank visionaries ignorable minds demise.